Still trying to find my way

[newmama]

Mystik, those were interesting dreams! The first about the separate beds and having your H reach across for you....from the other bed! The twin beds must have represented you and OW!

But then the second dream- you also had a reference to "twins" in regard to OW being pregnant with twins. I actually laughed, though, when I read that everyone loved OW and that your brother's girlfriend couldn't tell you it was ok to hate her! I laughed because that is extremely unlikely! She will always have an invisible scarlet A in the eyes of your friends and family.
Now, they may be excited about the baby once she is born, and that has to be sooooooo hard for you. But the baby is innocent.

If my stbxh gets OW pregnant, and they have a baby, I will not ever talk about the baby or look at it or anything, but S will talk about it just like your son is. It would drive anyone crazy! And make anyone depressed! You will get through this, though.

Oh and the dreams might be a little enhanced by your anti-d's. I know when I took zoloft I had vivid dreams every night!