Irish,

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how do I make amends for this and move forward avoiding the same mistakes?


Make amends to whom? I would start by forgiving yourself.

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What will it feel like, look like, etc. when I am living a different way?


What do you want it to look like?

Sweetie, are you on the alt? If so, look me up. In the meantime I will try to condense some of the tools that helped me. I tend to be wordy sometimes smile

HUGS