I get the picture TG and TH and BR: it is a brutal reality for me because I honestly have no idea what I am going to do. I hate facing this - how do I make amends for this and move forward avoiding the same mistakes?

What will it feel like, look like, etc. when I am living a different way?

I sound and feel like an infant - and I'm sorry to be so completely ignorant - but it is definitely my missing link~

M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years
Ds-24,22/S-18
D - 3/11
A Day at a Time