Saturday morning update: I'm feeling really angry this morning. I'm just ticked that I am having to go through this childish behavior with someone who is supposed to be a man - an adult - a father and husband to be looked up to!!! I know I can't act on my feelings but I sure would just like to go off! I keep asking myself why it is I care so much about saving a marriage to someone who can treat me this way and not think a thing of it?! It is such selfish behavior and I know I don't deserve it.
Last night it was back to H playing XBox most of the night then coming to bed and staying as far away from me as possible. Why is he making such a point of it lately to sleep on the edge of the bed and in general, being as cold but polite as possible? I keep thinking back to how, when all this first started 2 months ago, he was still making an effort to hug me, say ILY, and be affectionate. Why is it when I started GAL and doing the 180s has he now turned into, "Let me not say ILY at all or hug her, or show her any signs that there are feelings...." Why is it when he was telling me how he felt he wanted out that he was being affectionate? Now that the D talk has stopped, he's giving me the cold shoulder?
Sorry to rant - but this is the most confusing part to me.
I would rack this up to him being more into someone else but there are no signs of it for the moment. When he's not at work, he's at home. There's been no nightly jogging for the past few nights... Haven't even seen him texting anyone. I gotta get hold of that cellphone....
