a little venting for tonight. I had a pretty good day. i managed to get some work done. And that's good because my attention span has been 5 mins for about 4 weeks.
However, by the time I got home I was going negative and angry. As much at myself than her. She took D to Candaces (where the B'day party is tomorrow) and texted "...and I may just stay her for the party tomorrow. Not sure." So i asked "did you take the Bouncy castle" "Yep. It's heavy" So, don't pretend you had no intention of staying over if you took tomorrow stuff today.
Also, our provincial lotto is 1x50M plus 55 additional 1M prizes. Her BBMsgr status said ?Be nice to me LottoMax". As i leave work, she says "Get lotto tix. wouldn't it be great to split 50M" Mt first thought is "that'll take the pressure off" hers is 'Split and run theory'. My brain was running overtime at the end of the day so instead of saying "Sure" I text back "If that's what you want" (a line I should reserve for separation paper talk) Dumb.
So I came home and hit the Bowflex to byurn off some anger. Still not thinking nice things. Kind of resentful, actually. So here i sit before showering, just fuming at her.
So tomorrow i have the house to myself, I guess. i'm not cleaning her dinner dishes. She can clean up after herself whenever she comes home.
Got 5000 square feet of lawn to mow tomorrow and then ..... don't know what to do with myself.
hopefully, i'll be in a better mood. My parents' 50th is next weekend and I have D all week. I hope I can keep it together.
