Nothing fits

[mishka422]

Tell me this....why am I so scared? Why can't I just lay it all out on the table to Gabe and let him do with it whatever he wants? It's on the tip of my tongue and I can't spit it out. My throat literally closes up. It doesn't help that I see him a grand total of about 30 minutes a day so there is not much time to sit down and have any kind of serious discussion except in the middle of the night. It may have to be at some crazy hour but then he'll be tired and not receptive to anything I have to say.

Grrrr....I'm frustrating myself. It makes me very angry with myself that I am such a danged wimp.