Wow! I love it and think you should send it. But then I was a horrible DBer.. since my H and I are not together and whenever I try to set boundries he gets nasty!
Thanks W2G. Nice to hear from one of my first DB friends!
Well I haven't sent it but I think I will read it to my counselor whenever we meet next. Feels good just to get it off my chest. Plus I figure it will give her some insight into my current emotional state which can help her, help me....
Well I was just mean to Dan in an unexpected way...he came to pick up kids, Nathan asked if he wanted to see our pics from Great Wolf. He said sure, not that he had a choice! So I got the digital camera out, he looked through the pics and had tears in his eyes. Guess he doesn't like seeing me and the kids having so much fun and looking so happy without him! I actually noticed (and mentally noted) during the trip how peaceful it was, even with Nathan getting sick.
There was no one trying to control the schedule and make sure everything was done just so. We swam however long we felt like it, didn't have to worry that we were 'wasting time' resting in the room or walking around the hotel looking at things instead of all swim, all the time. Once Nathan got sick nobody blamed anybody for him being sick or criticized me for how I chose to get his medicine and take care of him. Just..........calm. And nice. All three of us cuddled in my queen bed even though I paid $25 to upgrade us to the room with bunk beds. And I didn't care! We sat together in bed and watched a documentary on the birth and growth of Pixar and had a great time, stayed up till midnight.
Oh and tonight as Dan tried to leave Sydney started bawling she didn't want to go to Daddy's, she wanted Mommy. I am sure that cut like a knife. I know she was tired and needed a nap and didn't mean it to be cruel, but I could tell he was hurt.
Ok off to finish mowing the lawn. With a heat index of 105* and a real temp of 90*. Yay!
