Just Confronted - A Litttle Confused

[Quicksilver264]

There will be a bit of frustration on her part that you are doing what she wanted, but just keep doing it... I theorized a while back on this forum that this is all a subconcious test of your commitment...

That's the thing. I know she tells EVERYONE that I have finally accepted the divorce and there is no going back. She has told many, many people that she is very relieved about it. Her parents still hold out hope that things will get better. It is hard for me to believe that a woman who values money so very much would drop 1000$ on a lawyer retainer, and 390$ on filing D papers if she didn't intend to go through with it. Maybe it is subconscious and she needs to see the changes in me are consistent and REAL.

She is seeing an individual counselor right now starting yesterday, and I know which one. Overall, the C is very good.

But her traveling so much makes it hard to get in visits to the marriage counselor. That is where I feel we might make some progress.

Boy today has just been a roller coaster of emotion and I have no idea why. Thank God no one is home right now and I can let it out.

Anyone have any suggestions what to do or how to control that rise of emotion? I see that as my only problem to DB right now. My FEELINGS are screaming for me to do one thing, only when I know I need to do another. It is so draining to constantly have to fight like that.