What I am trying to figure out is what will take this anxious feeling away. And I know the answer is time. Not snooping, for me, who always has to feel in control to prevent or prepare for another hurt (yes, I know that is some of my issue) - is a HUGE accomplishment for me. I think TG is correct about "leaving" - establishing a "loving distance." It feels like a "damned if I do, damned if I don't" / if I go along and let him have access and be amicable etc. - then he is experiencing the best of both worlds. If I draw a firm line - then H sees me as agitating and being difficult. I need time to think and figure it out. Always love input and perspective!
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
