Think I am dead now.

[beingreal]

Par...

I hope you are still reading these.

I have lost two friends to suicide. I think about them all the time. The simple things they missed because they thought it was too difficult to keep going. You won't know how happy you can be unless you try.

I can't begin to tell you the devastation those people left behind when they killed themselves. Just hurt and anger. You might just go to sleep--but you leave everyone you love with the same feelings you have right now.

Hurt

Anger

Hopeless

Is that what you want for them? Don't do this. If you can't do this for yourself, then do it for someone you love until you finally can live for yourself.

Reach out to someone you love.

And let us know how you are doing. You have people worried sick over here.

(and if it makes you feel any better...I've been right where you are right this second. I promise it gets better. If you let it.)