I can also understand why the pain would make you feel like you don't want to live. How long have you been living with this pain? Why do you feel like you can't handle it? And why do you feel like you are going to lose your family? How much pain do you think your family will feel after you are gone?
My thoughts are with you and I wish you well.
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712
