Looking for help with WAW

[AtTheEnd?]

Barkley,

I don't have OM in my sitch, but wife still never returned. It's been over a year, we exchange children and things are very cordial, but nothing has changed in any direction. I have my own apt. and she is in the house, and things seem to be holding steady. I've wondered the same thing about the OM, if there was OM, maybe things would happen quicker, but alas, no one else. Frustrating!

I'm finding that I'm growing tired of the current situation, and ready to break everything up. No OW, nothing more than I'd like more out of my life, and the current circumstances aren't cutting it. There isn't any discomfort, just wanting something more. A month ago, I struggled with the whole question about selfishness. Was I being selfish for wanting out of the current situation, or was I being selfish for dragging my feet and prolonging a possible divorce. It's all been so complicated.

Frustrating thing is that a month and a half ago, we kissed, went out to dinner, looked like things were headed in a good direction, then everything fell apart. Not sure why or what sparked it, but it's all come back to the same old circumstances. I told her that I'm thankful for the good times that we had together, and if this comes to an end, I'll say goodbye with love, honor, and respect. I'm not bitter or angry, just willing to go on.

Not sure what her reaction to any of this is, but I'm not really watching any more. We've just grown apart, and I'm still very nice, just not watching every move, studying it, trying to analyze everything. I'm content with with a reconciliation or a divorce, and I wouldn't have made that statement if I didn't believe it.