The rest of YOUR life is going to slip away because she left it?
Par, look man, that is the the second lamest thing in the world.
You control your life, not her.
There are alot of issues within your post above that suggest problems from both of you in a relationship. But right now the focus should be on you and your thoughts of eating the barrel.
Golf...you play golf, you chase perfection. How fun is THAT? Chasing perfection, can you tell I'm not a big fan of it...I understand the concept but golf to me is made for OCD people to 'enjoy'. When is the last time you actually ENJOYED the whole round of golf?
FIND something FUN to do.
You want to feel the experience of living?
Do something that you are deathly afraid of. Seriously.
If you are that close to offing yourself, then you shouldn't be afraid of confronting your fear. Are you afraid of heights? Set up a parachute jump. Too exepnsive? Go to an ammusement park and go on the rides you would never have gone on before.
Afraid of spiders? Go check out Petsmart and ask to handle one. Confront your fears...and guess what life tastes F-ing amazing the next few days afterwards. The next meal afterward is one of the best of your life.
Par,
Look man I am 3 years behind you.
Call the hot line provided.
Give the gun to a friend you trust to keep it away from you.
What type of gun btw? A Sig? .45? .22?
Ahhh you're a golfer its probablly a little .38 speical.
Par, go LOOK for things that YOU enjoy. If you wait for life to throw happiness on you; you are doing it wrong.
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
