grace - thank ya! i get calm just reading your posts. and you do light up a room...even here on the internet!
i'm not sure? here are some things that have helped me in the past to feel better about myself.
exercising, especially swimming
not talking about my sitch all the time. the days i have gone w/o talking about it have been so freeing. it somehow allows my brain to switch off from obsessing. those days are filled with really positive interactions with loved ones and strangers and then the day turns out quite nicely.
do these count? i also have been thinking about your other question...a bigger goal that i can think of and i'm having a hard time thinking of one for now. so i'll give myself time on that.
thanks for the piece about the fear. you all can see that so much of my panic is being driven by fear. my C tells me i have to smash my crystal ball since it is never right (its an ongoing joke we have now). i'm so good about catastrophizing and the reality is never as bad as i had imagined.
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Don't think it happens overnight for anyone here.
i can't wait till i'm past all this. i am confident in that...that i will get past this (not that i have a choice anyways!). and likely come out stronger in the end. i just wish i could be there already...you know? and on my good days (like today is better for me), i can imagine the light at the end of the tunnel...but on bad days, well i'm sure you know what that looks like so need to explain.
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BTW, "failure" is an event, not a person and not you.
