You can work your way through this difficult time. You must. Hold steady. Even though right now your pain seems to be clouding your vision of the future. You must hold on. There are better days ahead. One thing is for certain ...things change... things always change. Change is a part of life that you can count on.
For now - there is help for you -- call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1- 800-273-TALK (1- 800-273-8255) or 911 for help. Call right now.
And remember that you have so many people here who genuinely care about you. Many have been where you are right now. You are not alone. We are all here to support you. You will get through this. Your life will change. There are better days ahead for you.