It is really not about showing or hurting her. my depression is the reason we are not togeather. Hope she is happy with her life. I just cant stand mine. And I have been on all the anitdepresents, religion and all that stuff. I am just not ever happy. I worked on myself. Went back and got my MBA last year and thought that would make me feel better but no. Just can't be happy no matter what. not one happy day in years. I have been through cancer and although cured i hurt everyday with pain, i am a professional golfer but cant even focus on that. sometimes it just might be better not to deal with waking up everyday and feeling like crap.
