Well, I just can't handle it. I can't lose my family. I know people are helpless here but I am done. i really do not want to live anymore. The pain is to great and i do not want to live anymore. Don't say see a theropist. I bought a gun last night and fully intend to use it. On me not her. Can't blame her. Things do get better with time but I am not going through months of feeling like this. Just wanted to voice my option. And no, I did not tell her. That would be even more chicken [censored]. Ill take the easy way out and am kind of excited about it.
