Citygirl, I am with you. But (and I am prepared to take a 2x4 - maybe it's what I need, I dunno), I may not see my WH for a long long time, and when he comes back in 2 weeks it may be my only chance to say "hey guy, look what you are going to miss out on, me and your adorable newborn". I don't want to suck up to him, be is BFF..that's not possible after what he's done. But I can't be angry and hostile anymore..it's just more reason for him to keep running.
My WH had a crisis 6 months ago - yes, perhaps after months of falling out of love with me and detaching even though he continued trying with me to get pregnant- and I didn't show him that I could be the strong one and lead us through this crisis.
Basically I had a big hissy-fit post bomb and its continued until now and I'd like to stop the blame game and do something different.
