So tonight I went out with a frined for a drink and wings. he went through a divorce when he was younger before I met him No kids. Now happily married with a young son.
We talked about what he did and how it went. And we talked about where I am and what I'm doing. He likes the plan and wish he know about it back then. DB would have just been released then.
I got the new shoes and some new pants for work. Feeling good and looking good. Took the convertible into town and revelled in the wind. Played MY music as loud as I wanted. Felt like ME again.
We discussed detaching and GAl. But a lot about detaching as I think ireally am starting to feel it. Which sadly means I am not feeling "it" for W as much.
When I got home about 9 W and D were getting ready for bed. She started to tell me about something funny she did today. But I focused on D's excitement I was home. I followed her up the stairs and realized W had stopped talking mid-sentence. There was a minute of silence and I kind of felt bad. I normally would have apologized and aske her to continue. Instead she called up she was going to dry here hair.
15 min later I was in their room playing with D. We were running up and down the hall 'Catch me, Daddy'. W came in and started on the story again and got a little further this time before I was summoned to "Catch me" So off I went down the hall.
So this time she came out and joined us. We cahsed her back and forth between us for a good 30 minutes. Damn, we were having fun as a family should. When D started to overhea, W took her to the couch to try and settle her for bed. And she finished the story while I was in earshot.
So she comes to the master bedroom and "asks" me if she can borrow the Bouncy Castle (those inflateable things) for Candaces D's birthday Saturday. I said sure. (and she's giving me a heds up to her Sat plans)
But again, she asks a physical question "Did I get a mosquito bite on my chin?" So I go and look and ask where, kind of pointing. She grabs my finger and says "Here" and touches her chin with my finger. I said looks like a little one. She says "Not as bad as this?" and puls her sleeve up to show another but while doing so actually pushes her hip against me. I back off a bit.
Please, can somebody tell me WTF is going on here? Is she starting to sense the detachment? Is she noticing some changes? Is she missing me cause I've not been home befor 8 all week?
I'm really confused and if she is signalling some warmth, I don't want to screw it up.
The flipside is that she moved the D Kit (so she at least had it in her hand). She hasn't said that she's changed her mind or anything. And she texted erlier to say I didn't have to take D to daycare as she was tired; it was going to be nice; so she was going to call in sick (only took two afetr surgery-that's all she's ever taken). Wish I had the damn GPS Phone set up (doing it tomorrow)
