I'm just so worried about my kids, and myself actually. I have never dealt well with rejection and she is my first and only real relationship. All my other encounters were really just one night stands, which is actually how we started. Lots of one night stands and neither of us cared. When she left college for work, I didn't think I was ever going to see her again. Until she called me a month later to ask me to come and visit her. My life with her has been pretty much great ever since.
I was under a ton of stress at work the last couple of years. I got a bunch of promotions and more responsibility. At one point I had sores on my head from pulling out my eyebrows and my thumbnails were all wavy/rough from pulling out my cuticles. They still are, but are better. One of my friends suggested that I was using sex as stress relief and he was probably right. It got to the point that I would forgo other activities, such as hunting or fishing to stay in bed with my W and have sex. I enjoyed it more than anything else in this world and thought she was right there with me most of the time. I knew wasn't always ready at first, but seemed to enjoy it by the end, so I thought she just needed a warm-up period, which I always gave her. This post is getting out of hand. I put way too much info out there, don't I?
