Just Confronted - A Litttle Confused

[Quicksilver264]

I wouldn't say coming down out of the clouds, yet I think.

APART from the EA, she has other, real contempt and apathy for me. For my failures as a husband and partner.

She may be coming to accept that the OM may not contact her back, but she still just is treating me like a disliked roommate.

I don't know how long I am supposed to keep up with detachment, or when to try something new.

There is a family gathering I was invited to on Sat, and she has explicitly said she doesn't want me to go. But her PARENTS do.

She expects it to be awkward, and for me to be a jerk. I guess my 180 can be to go and be the nicest person ever, and help with everything.

People are right when they say this is the HARDEST thing you will ever do. It's hard to see the way she feels toward me and how much she sometimes enjoys talking about the divorce and what she is doing to make it go forward.

Emotions can really suck and be hard to control. I have to just keep reminding myself that this is only ONE day, and there will be many more to follow before the divorce process goes to the lawyers.

I have 90 days from when I am served before it will go to court to divide assets. I should be served next week. I wonder if that is long enough to DB enough and see if it even makes a dent.