grace, your story is inspirational. glad to hear you've come to such a positive point in you life. sometimes i am so scared of the unknown. like i keep thinking, how am i supposed to pick up the pieces of my life and move on?

thanks for the piece about not blaming too much. i am just too good at that. and good to know that one thing isn't the kicker. last time i backslid, i moped about it for days so not going to do that this time. i'm human after all!

and jack - i *think i get what you're saying that sometimes a little backslide is ok. one good thing that came out of all this mess is i told H he is my best friend. H response 'wow, you never said that to me before.' i couldn't believe it but he was right.

Quote:
Once you have the confidence to know that whatever happens, you have the courage and strength to take care of whatever needs taking care of, the fear just shrinks.
i'm scared. and i miss H frown