Thanks for the replies so far. I am glad I made the post more readable. I love my husband with all my heart and I do believe deep down he still loves me. I am trying to make positive changes in my life for myself and be a good mother to our daughters all the while hurting and confused on a daily basis. It is just hard to know sometimes whether to go with this friendly thing we have going on and he is over at my house sometimes and everything is good or just pull back and have little contact, only dealing with the kids. These times the last couple of weeks when we have been getting along so well almost give me hope but then I don't know. I wish I thought I could be strong enough to pull away completely and go dark with him. I don't believe he is in contact with the OW anymore, since he is either at work, talking or texting me, or with his Dad. I guess he could be texting her, and I am being naive. When he left back in April I assumed he would be back in a week or so. Boy was I wrong.
