Mishka, I grew up in an Italian community and they used to drive us nuts at World Cup time! I kid you not, guys would spray paint their cars the colours of the Italian flag. My friends and I used to go out on the street corners and wave placards in support of whoever was playing Italy and we didn't even like soccer!
Now, back to the serious stuff...as you said! Mish just knowing and hearing others go through this is helpful. You feel so alone when you're like this! I actually did a bit of what you mentioned, I went to the park (we have some beautiful parks around and I'm thankful for that beauty) for a walk and then decided to add running to my walking. I'd originally thought I'd go for a run today (haven't run in over a year!) but the weather this morning kind of sucked. When I got to the park I realized I had a good pair of running shoes on and was in shorts so what the heck. So I walked a bit, ran a bit, walked a bit...I used to run over five miles three times a week when I was with STBX, it helped keep me sane. Exercise is one of the things I have not been too faithful to since the separation. One of the ways to overcome Adrenal Fatigue is light to moderate exercise a few times per week. At work I walk 2-3 hours per day but it's exhausting not refreshing so when I get home more physical exercise isn't usually on my mind. So, anyway, in my journaling idiocy of this morning I did come up with a list of things that might help me bounce back to the life I'd like to have:

1- physical exercise e.g. walking, running, Yoga
2- deep breathing, meditating, prayer regularly
3-appreciate the NOW!
4- using a cognitive exercise "Is this thought really helping me right now?"
5- go back to a therapist for a bit
6-allow personal weakness, cry sometimes!
7- read my books on Acceptance and Commitment Therapy
8-Acknowledge my accomplishments and strengths
9-Recognize that feelings come and go
10- reach out to others for support- just a little!
11-See these periods as growth opportunities
12-Be kind to yourself, like you'd be to others
13-fatigue can be reversed
14- Be willing to consider AD's if you need to
15- You don't need to be perfect!!


So that's my blog for now! I'm seriously thinking of going to the game tonight, we'll see.
Thanks Mish smile


Divorced February 27, 2012.

"Only by love is love awakened".~ Ellen G White