hi grace, so you're still with H? what happened in your sitch? i'm so in awe of you and the strength you have shown.
to let folks know, i backslid SO hard the last few days. you name it, i did it...crying, begging, pleading, snooping, talking about R. sigh. it's kind of frustrating b/c things had been mostly good for the last few months (from my side). i was going with the coach's advice and everything you all have said...good PMA, being friends only, no expectations, not taking things seriously, etc. results were were very positive, H was being more and more responsive with friendly behavior, then flirting, then even physical things like spooning and holding me tight in bed. to be honest, we've spent some of our most tender moments in the last few weeks.
so i remember reading somewhere that when you do the backsliding stuff, you might as well sign your own D papers. guess i should get my pen ready...
i'll be honest, i'm panicked...panicked at a timeline left of one week now. then the last week was spent packing up our old home and moving everything to storage until we can figure out next steps. finally, the anniversary of the death of our son is this sat 6/26. my emotions have taken the best of me. all my detachment has been thrown out the window and stomped on.
i so need some encouragement/love/and even 2x4s now. i don't want to make the move to the D section yet of the forum. and plus, if these are the last days with my H, i want to at least make the most of them.
