don't send that letter you are defending yourself. too much talk about yourself and why you did what you did.

you need to validate what she said and accept your responsibility in the situation.

get out of the hole

exercise
pray
play
do something nice for someone else
make a list of what you are grateful for
find some red/white/blue face paint to watch the match tommorow

M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12
Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.