I gave up...filed for D

[luvless]

Hi guys,

I've been around doing paperwork. I am trying to stuff my 19 year marriage in a file and it doesn't fit!

I am still having good days and very sad/bad moments but I am dealing. I'm at a stage where I don't know what to think anymore...was my marriage real? do I even get sad over it? is he the guy that I thought loved me very much? I feel like not feeling anything over someone who didn't exist - it's weird. I don't even know if I'm making any sense.

The next phase of arguing is right around the corner. It's gonna get ugly I'm sure knowing my X. He has abandoned us all emotionally and physically and now he'll do it financially.

Keep praying for me. I'm not done yet.

Luv