help with a plan

[flowmom]

I wish I could jump ahead in time and find out if this waiting for her is worth it or if she's still playing me for a fool.

IDU, don't see yourself as waiting, because that mentally puts her in control. See yourself as a man with a choice...and if you choose to strategically delay action in order to be able to live without regrets in the future, that's something you're doing for you. You don't need to crystal ball. You're a good man doing your best ((( hugs ))).