Grace - Thanks for the advice. My feelings or need to go dark have a lot to do with self-protection. A few posts ago Cat asked some very pointed questions about how I actually feel about the multiple deceptions, indiscretions with prostitutes, and presumed sexual addiction. I realized that I have been avoiding my feelings and instead trying to normalize everything in an effort to not lose H. It really is not an attempt to punish - but I am scared and confused about it being perceived that way. Is the LRT and going dark one in the same? I understand your point about email/text versus live conversation. I want to be able to trust my instincts - but they haven't really been strong of late.
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
