Stuck and don't know how to proceed

[sportsfan]

I may have had an epiphany on why I'm questioning the dark aspect. When H left almost two years ago, I had been essentially dark towards him. While we went out and had fun at times, I did not have a PMA. When I think back, I wouldn't have wanted to be around me. I wouldn't have wanted to be married to me. I wouldn't have wanted to come home to me. The way I was pushed him away. Absolutely, he was wrong to start up with someone else. In his mind, it was probably an exit A.

Then something happened. I decided I wanted my life back. I wanted me back. H then found me attractive again. Wanted to hang out with me again. I think that if I went completely dark, that would be going down cheeseless tunnels. I do believe that I need a change though. I think dim is more appropriate. I am definitely going to pull back and let him miss me and hope that he does. I will make myself more mysterious. I will be my happy-go-lucky self, but not be as available. I will not respond to every text or accept every invitation.

What do ya all think? Gotta head to the event! Will check in tomorrow.