Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

He wanted to know why I didn't tell him about the change in daycare. I wanted to get it across to him that he hasn't been approachable, that's why I told him he was stand-offish. But looking back at how I've been during exchanges, I can see how he would feel that I was the one stand-offish so he backed off, if that makes sense.

H never reads his mail, I should have made the effort to tell him about the daycare, I mentioned it in my brain dump post actually. But because he's been so dark on me I didn't want to be the one to break the silence. And I don't think he was furious at me, he was just frustrated in general about the whole daycare mess.

Urgh, this is all so complicated and confusing. I'm afraid if I reply, that will be wrong. But at the same time I'm more afraid that if I ignore him, I blow the chance to improve our situation. As it is we don't even talk about DS right now other than to confirm who picks him up which day. No talk about his schooling, no talk about his summer activities. Nothing.