Stuck and don't know how to proceed

[sportsfan]

I blew it today. I got VIP tix to a major event this afternoon. Sent H a text to see if he wanted to join me. We had talked about this event a couple of weeks ago. He replied. Thanks, but sorry, no. People on vacation and we are just swamped.

I responded, K - Too bad.

That was it. I am going to go anyway of course. I have a gut feeling that going dim/dark is going to backfire on me. I can't explain why. I already have a life, but now it feels more empty. My emotions feel all over the place this week.