2 weeks left to DB

[newmama]

We also talked about how I think I got lost somewhat in my marriage and that this crisis is an opportunity to find myself again and be the ME I am meant to be. And he said I might even find myself wanting to thank WH for this opportunity. I said bloody unlikely!! Not at that stage yet!

This is where I want to get to...I don't think I would EVER thank stbxh though! Even if I remarry! I never want him to think "see? This was all for the best! everyone gets their happy ending! It wasn't so bad that I did this to her and S!" He needs to think "I am so stupid and so sad to have lost newmama. I feel horrible for doing this to her and my son. How could they ever forgive me? I will never treat anyone this horrible again. I was very selfish and will regret my actions for the rest of my life."

Well Piano, I am glad that you are feeling good as of late! How is your sleep?