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LolaL,

I suppose I still wonder how someone can tell you they love you, marry you, and then say you convinced them to do it. I have realized that I will never truly have an answer to that question; some people just don't care. SG is one of them. He was really good at faking it though.

H either believes it or is saying it to lash out and hurt you. Either way, not your problem. The unanswered questions sure do linger and can eat away at you, if you let them (which I admit I still do at times!).

I don't want anything that will tie me to him anymore.

I hear you. Memories will always be there, though they will fade. But why have physical, tangible reminders? Anything X owned but didn't take is boxed and stored in the basement. Anything she owned but didn't want and almost everything she has ever given me has been donated or tossed.

Now that it is done, it is something I do not want to repeat ever again. There is no point in me having any kind of contact with him at all if it is going to hurt that bad. I have just had enough.

Amen.

Peace,