Michelle that is exactly what I told him I was going to do. I don't want nor have the money to expend $800, especially since one of my new kitties had to go right to the vet, and that cost me about 350. I am going on a cruise, and the last step is buying the plane tickets, so hello...

All of this has been a real eye opener for me. I mean, I knew that the SG didn't give a damn, but I think it has finally sunk in. Today I am not angry, not hateful, I just feel a little sad that my family and me got dragged into this. I suppose I still wonder how someone can tell you they love you, marry you, and then say you convinced them to do it. I have realized that I will never truly have an answer to that question; some people just don't care. SG is one of them. He was really good at faking it though.

I am at peace with the decision. I don't want the car, nor do I need it. I don't want anything that will tie me to him anymore. I am very ready to put this nightmare behind me. Yesterday was par for the course, I knew it had to be done but also knew he would become extremely defensive, and try to blame everything on me. But it didn't make it any easier to deal with.

Now that it is done, it is something I do not want to repeat ever again. There is no point in me having any kind of contact with him at all if it is going to hurt that bad. I have just had enough.

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..