I know everything that has been said to me on this board is true - but I have become this person who feels unless I am doing for my family then I am being self indulgent.
Irish, I am the self proclaimed BUT police. If you see my posts.
Only because I am the biggest offender (I'm getting better).
It is to me the biggest indicator that you are avoiding something you need to focus on.
Read that ^^^^^^
You have become someone you don't want to be?
Is this who you are? Or who you've become because of coping with difficulties in your M?
It is ok to be angry.
It is NOT ok to blame someone or accept that someone's actions have a reflection on YOU.
Part of our journey here is to look in the mirror.
THAT is the hardest part of our journey WHEN we get there.
When you look in the mirror today you see someone hurt by their spouse, someone in pain, someone angry, someone sad.
BUT that
Is not who you are really. Is it?
The easy road here is to go down the one that says
"H Cheated on Me so I can leave and blame him exit 24b 2 miles"
About 5 miles down that road you'll see a sign post...
"Bitterville 15 miles."
It's going take you a while to get to Bitterville you know why?
Because there is a lot of f-ing traffic on this road.
There is another road. A tougher road. One that is worth it. One that at the end you find...
YOU.
That is why we say focus on YOU. YOU are the only one YOU can control.
Do for YOU now. What is best for YOU....
IS is best for your family.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
