Completely Blindsided

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Yeah, GALing the mind is a much harder prospect than the body. I can get into a dance class and either focus on intently on the steps, of overtly on channeling the emotion into the movements. I'm home now and I'm absolutely exhausted... physically.

Mentally, wow, that's a tough one.

There are a few things I have in mind that are big that I have my sights on, I just need to break them down into achievable chunks... which I'm working at. I do a lot of daydreaming, but I'm finding it hard not to run out of steam atm.

I need to stop assuming things, it's going to be the death of me. The problem is, she mentioned she went down the coast... do I ask how it was? Say "that's nice"? ignore it completely? Hargh. I hear her name mentioned and I come crashing to the ground. It's pathetic really.

You're right though - fact, she's replied quickly and positively. She was online today. Not much else can be taken as fact. I don't want to reply too soon, but at the same time, I hate logging in and seeing her email at the top of my inbox. That sucks.

In a lot of ways, being over here does make things easier... everything except the chance of getting back together. Plus there is still the house to deal with.

It is time to change gear. It is time to get my positive mindset working into overdrive....just need to get the energy to do that. Maybe tomorrow hey?

Tonight I think I just need to sleep.