Black humor: I think it's a great way to be with him.
Have you set up the next two weeks to keep yourself very busy and with as many people as possible? It will help you forget him!
Thanks G, yes I have some nice plans in place.
Tomorrow a friend coming over to play with bubs, and tomorrow night dinner with my Dad. Next week, I hope, a trip to the bush with my family.
Today I was out and about shopping and it was the first time I felt totally on top of things.
I also saw my psych (the one who met WH) and we talked about how lack of imagination had probably made my marriage stagnate. Instead of being creative about making positive changes to our lives, we just drifted along doing what wasn't working, then WH felt 'trapped', of course which was exacerbated when we found out I was pregnant. WH was so *overhwelmed, he left.
* also talked about the story I might tell bub one day - about how and why WH left. It might go something like "Your father wanted you very much, but his love for you was so overwhelming, he couldn't stay here and had to go home to his country where he felt he needed to be.."...or something like that! Er, needs to be refined big-time, especially that last bit, but you get the idea I hope!
We also talked about how I think I got lost somewhat in my marriage and that this crisis is an opportunity to find myself again and be the ME I am meant to be. And he said I might even find myself wanting to thank WH for this opportunity. I said bloody unlikely!! Not at that stage yet!
