Oh, trust me, FIB. I am a "fer" cry from the beginning days of this when all was woe, and I thought I was going to die. Truly, I have vivid memories of the fear of dying. Now, why I thought and felt that way, I'll not understand for a long time.
But, I'm a long way off from the part that says, the relationship was perfect. I know there was an unhealthiness there. Why I did not see it sooner, I'll never know.
I feel sorry for him now. And most days, I'm a good bit better than I was during that last posting. The days when I cry are few and far between anymore. They mostly come when I'm not connecting with others/friends and family. But, I'm able to break out of that doldrum phase eventually. And, I know a good cry when I see one.
Thanks for your support. You know, we all need help/words of encouragement once in a while.
