I continually count my blessings. As hard and awful as this year has been, I have been very lucky in friends, family, financials.
Am I in an R with K? guess so. At least a physical one! I DO need to open and talk with him--he may be getting in deeper than either of us ever thought of.
I don't want to screw it up--a good friend, mess it up with sex and rebound and the rest of it.
Went on a rock-climbing date. OK time--but what is this chemistry stuff? how many times do you go out before you say--there's just nothing there? I guess you know when you know.
This week the thought that kept occurring to me: at the core, I am a person who was left. I am a person who could be tossed aside. I am a person whom my life-partner could leave within 3 months.
I tried to do "the work" on that. I'm sure that my core essence is NOT the above. But as Gardener says: it's the million dollar question: who.am. I. What do I want?
Lunch with X in laws OK. We avoided the elephant in the room. What is there to say? Your son ditched me for a younger, apparently independently wealthy woman, who makes out with other people's husbands in front of her lover and his partner??
I know I am very lucky in all that I have. I just have grief to continue working through.
Right? right. Work thru it.
LFA--now to your posts. The dogs, the move, final settlement of the D?
