I need to find ways to de-stress, but I'm not sure what my options are. Again, been trying to do so much focused on me that I can't seem to think of new things to try....
I think it's time to GAL your mind, not just physically. Is there something you always wanted to do but thought was too big to achieve? How about starting on that and imagining yourself being there? Have some images in your mind that makes you feel good, w/out your W. It's a test in a way to see how you can learn to turn your mind to negative>positive... I used to think when I'm full of emotions I need some de-stresser like playing sports, but I'm finding that by switching your mind to something else you actually start to forget about it. "Act as if" I guess.
I know what you mean when you say it feels bad to let go. But worrying and assuming about everything won't help you either, if anything it'll bring you down. Focus on only the facts you know... S replies positively when you send positive. Anything else is assuming.
Re: other threads I used to think 'wish we had kids/ house together' then we have to keep in touch... but now I'm realising that this is not a healthy way of thinking. It would've been so much more complicating... and so much more painful. Tend to disregard the positives of the situation. Being far means it's easier to GAL as well, especially that you're in a new location.
Time to change the gear to positives in your mind B! Come on when you look at your whole life it's not that bad... pretty good actually isn't it? Focus on what you're grateful for! Don't let the stitch fool you into thinking it's loads of mess. Getting unwell bc of it is just not worth it, you deserve better than that... from yourself.