Nothing fits

[mishka422]

I had a convo with my counselor today about overcoming fear. I have been scared to talk to Gabe about next steps and what direction we are heading in. The time for fear is over and one thing she brought up sealed it for me. She said that we need to come to an understanding of what we each expect and what we want out of the convoluted R not only so that I stop being in such a state of limbo, not knowing what my status is in his eyes but mostly because of Marc and his expectations of having his family back. SCCRRRREEEECCCHHHH!!!!

Now, logically, I know that Marc probably does view this as 'happy family' time even though I told him it's all temporary and doesn't mean anything. I just didn't wrap my head around how our continued current status could be giving Marc further hope that this is forever. EEK! How dumb!