I thank each and everyone of you. Grit, you tell it as you see it and that is how it should be. Cat04, your insights are usually right on; SA, you always gently remind me to how to feel better, and Mach 1, you always give me a well deserved kick in the a@@. I have been venting now for 5 days, and I feel better. Each and everyone who has responded to my rants has helped me get through this. Today, I actually feel a lot better. The best I've felt in over a week.
I stated before I was in the Replay stage. I'm not, I'm in the Angry stage and while I have no problem standing up for myself, I do have a problem keeping my mouth shut. Staying dark means I keep my mouth shut. Therefore, I am angry.
I need to get back on the road to Detachment. My old co-workers called me and want to get together for lunch tomorrow. I'm going to my daughter's home this weekend to babysit her kids ( in the same town he is in) I have no plans to either talk or try to see him.
I know that compared to so many of you out there, I'm in a good place. I don't have to deal with the dumbass, and at least for the moment I am financially sound. Self-pitying is not my usual state, nor do I want it to be. So, for the moment, at least, I am crawling out of my rut, leaving the bicycle in the ditch, and moving on with my life. (Sure you are)Don't mind her, that was my heart talking. My head has the floor.
