you represent being a man to him - this is the path to take, his parents will and are still hurting him, he will tire of it.
is that why i was not the 'emotional lead' in the m? in my family, the women are not the 'emotional leads' in the r. just like my family loved one another unconditionally. he thought i didn't understand family love. i did - i have a wonderful family bond. but i also know what isn't a healthy family love. he told me that he feared being alone for the rest of his life. i wanted to ask him why he was still pushing for d but i didn't. i just gave him a warm smile and told him not to think too much.
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Quote: i was the only person he trusted to get close to him.
that's your ace
i hope he still knows this. for 9 yrs, i never once betrayed that trust. i still haven't. i could be the vindictive 'estelle'. but again, i didn't go there. i love myself not to betray my own morals and values. i am proud of who i am.
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Quote: it almost seemed like the closer i watched him bond with his parents, the less i trusted him.
so that "feeling" was one to pay attention to?
i can see it now. he's completely sided with them. the trust is gone. he can trust me. but i don't trust him. i feel like he's a completely different person. trust will have to be rebuilt.
