Is it normal that I don't even know what I want anymore. Have those of you out there experiencing this gone through those emotions.
You are no longer disoriented after the bomb. You have detached, have a different perpsective and she is hurting you still in spite of your efforts - so what you are feeling is normal but very unsettling. Know what your goals are, no expectations and prepare for either outcome.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.