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[awest1217]

Tons of fun at the zoo today! It is funny how much S has grown up since last year when I took him to our local small zoo. Today we went to a bigger zoo that was gorgeous and he loved it. He could pick out the animals himself and even helped with the two other younger ones with us. Then we I told him he could get something at the gift shop instead of getting a stuffed animal like last year, he picked out a plastic animal action figure set. All boy and very "grown up" or at least older boy toy. He really likes it, but it just reminded me how much he had grown up.

With H, I am doing ok. After my venting with my post above, I was fine. It really doesn't bother me anymore or at least only for an hour or so then I am over it. H did contact me last night...can't just leave me alone. He said good night understand I will always love the both of you. I took the bait sadly, but I wasn't kind like normal. I asked how he can say he loves us when he only contacts us once a week and sees us once a month. We text a little, but he never responded to my question. I found out he is going to sexual anonymous meetings along with therapy with a psychiatrist. It really doesn't change things with us, but it is good to know he is getting help for himself. No contact today, and I am going to do my best to just not contact him at all. I told him where I am going to put his mail from now on so now it is his problem. I am going to just leave it in our agreed spot and if he doesn't get it...oh well. I am also going to talk to an insurance agent about our car insurance. I don't know since H and I are both on the loan of our car if we both have to insured under the same insurance. If we don't, I am going to tell him to find his own before his renewal in August.

S and I are just living our lives and I really don't worry about H much. I doubt I will hear from him anytime soon, and about the father's day gifts and cards, he says he hasn't opened them yet because he didn't get back from therapy until late last night, but still today no message saying thank you. No big deal. it just solidifies that I am going to go without him, and with D...we will see how the summer progresses. No dating for a long time, but if someone would like to be friends I am not opposed as long as they understand we are just friends. Maybe in time I will figure out things with H and then after time and a D, I can begin to date. Definitely not looking for myself, just my friends...they love me.