Wow, that's a tough one. I think you needed to stand up to H because he just keeps taking you on this rollercoaster as HE wants. You didn't say anything but the truth (I can't believe he had the nerve to say you weren't going to talk to him anymore after HE has been ignoring you all this time!). I think in regards to your question about hope above, hope is really the only thing we have to go on, but on the other hand, we can't have blind hope. H is really not giving you much to work with here to keep the hope alive (besides empty and meanless words of I love yous...where's the action???) I just continue to feel so frustrated by our H's! Don't they see what they are missing out on. Exasberating!
It is still probably not the best idea to be pursing other R while you are still torn with this one. It's a really tough choice whether to D or not. H has been so closed up, that it's hard to know what he wants with this all. You don't want to give up S in this whole mess, but at what point do you just put H and this life behind you? That is the toughest question in all this. =/ There is no easy answer. You just have to continue to do what's best for you and S, and continue to live your lives. It sounds like you 2 are having a lot of fun together and I hope the zoo was fun!
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
