"All rise"

[faithisbelieving]

Hi all....I agree. I am not renewing my membership. One month was enough. I can see where kml is going with this. I didn't have to do any work. The emails flooded me. I think I will just 'meet and greet' the last few 'requests' to have coffee and then just relax.

All my body parts are still working but the years of playing sports have taken it's toll. Although my knees are still doing great, I can sense that the pounding has worn them so, I am looking into local bicycling groups as a new source of male camaraderie and exercise.

My son made the baseball travel league and it's going to take up a lot of time, so, that's the NEXT focus.

XW let the kids sleep over Saturday nite on her weekend so I had a nice Father's Day chunk of time with them. Many predicted that she would do this, so, I hope it continues.

Outside of that, I miss my children. Although I am OK when alone each night during the week, I miss them terribly. I still find myself staring at their vacant rooms. I don't think any real father 'gets over this', I think we adjust to it since we have no other option. Plain and simple, it sucks. I can't tell you how horrible it feels to have to ask HER for permission for extra time with them. It's emasculating.

The only interested bidders in the house have vanished, so, it's going to slow up now for summer. I am 'stuck' in the house until it sells. That is not such a bad thing per se, just a financial burden.

The positives so far: I am at peace in the house. The stress of the D is over. The few women that I have met so far, outside of the negatives of the date itself, have given me a little 'boost'. I think I can have a new R with someone.

I do not miss my X. Communication now is near nil. I DO miss the structure of marriage. I DO miss companionship. I DO miss sex. Hey...I'm the other species.

Have a great day.

FIB