The journey begins

[ClingingToHope]

Really had the blahs earlier today. For a number of reasons.

A week of having the girls for seven straight days came to an end.

I'm in a slump in softball. Nagging injuries and a lack of energy (this may sound crazy but this matters to me).

My Reds are losing (again, this matters).

I got a letter from STBXW's L on Saturday and they are asking for less of a payment to me -- which had me thinking off and on all weekend. It had been five weeks since I'd heard anything.

Money issues. Pumping out all this money for summer camps. I keep running the figures in my head to see if I'll get through the next six weeks without having to dip into reserves.

I rallied though. Good day at work. Nice to be back. Better softball game at night -- still no energy.

Fun project set up for tomorrow. Volunteering Thursday night.

Texts and emails to 31-year-old who I'd love to ask out once I'm divorced. I'm really hoping the guy she's starting to see fizzles.

I did not call my L yet. I think I'm going to wait a couple of days. I'm in that in between area where part of me wants to get this over with so I'm not sucked down her financial disaster vortex and the other is the only power I have here is time. I can allow the divorce to happen on my timetable.

I should get off to sleep though. I'm getting up early to donate/sell some plasma in the morning. Hey, every little bit helps. There also was a cute attendant there. Eye candy is always good.