OK - so I really did screw up. H is in control now because I confessed that I left him a message on the phone chat line and I felt bad and shouldn't have done it. Now - as crazy as it sounds - he has the upper hand because I admitted doing something I shouldn't have done. I have gone 2.5 days without tears / but realizing that I've lost my best friend of 28+ years has overwhelmed me. We have done practically everything through these years and almost the entire time - with no problems or signs of dissatisfaction. I know that MLC changes the universe / but for those still on earth - it's tough.
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
